Bye bye to Rishikesh

Today during the meditation, sadhana, i felt like writing about the India travel:
June 01st 2010, was then day selected for the goodbye to my 6 months journey in Rishikesh, unfortunately sometime i have got to start a new journey. I cried a lot, but was a beautiful day with the brazilian friends together on Guru Vandana, the prayer at 5 o´clock to Maharaji Ji (Guru in SachchaDham), the puja in Durga Temple and at Rama Temple. At 7.30 starts the kirtan and i could sing deeply with my heart, feeling the purest devotion:

Nivedan (Request)
"Purn Samarpana, purn karama sab
Perfect surrender, perfect shall be every work.
Sabke purn hridaya ho, he Prabhu
Everyone´s Heart shall be perfect
He Prabhu shighra tumhari jay ho
Oh, Lord, may the victory soon be yours."

At 9 we end the singing and goes down with the forehead on Guru´s feet, and this time I felt like saying something for the silence "Thank you, thank you very much". The drawn was put on his pillow, see reproduction bellow:

The girls told me to tell him I was leaving, but my emotion was so hard I could not speak more and he knew what I was going through. I took my prasad and left his room.

On the stairs I could not stop crying, was hurting me to imagine my life out of there, I felt afraid then he looked at me and put his hand on the heart, my hand was like blessing saying bye. For sure you all are with me.

The music teacher blessed me putting the hand on the top of my head, I´m crying like a baby at this moment, how can I love or hate this people so hard, who are they?! Workers, devotees, Indians, Bhramanis. Experiences that are my pure surrender.

86. Eu vim da minha armada (Santo Daime)
Eu vim da minha Armada 
Trazer fé e amor 
A minha mãe que me mandou 
Eu ficar firme aonde estou 

Vou seguindo os meus passos 
Se eu achar firmeza eu vou 
Não despreza os teus irmãos 
Mostra tua luz de amor 

Sou filho da Verdade 
Do poder superior 
A minha mãe que me mandou 
Trazer fé e amor


Radhe Radhe!!!